Bus Stop:
Monday:
I
stand beneath my large red umbrella, the heavy raindrops a steady staccato upon
and around me as I wait for the bus to arrive. I sneeze again and wipe my nose
with the back of my sleeve. It is already drenched from the rain and I wonder
why I am even standing underneath my so-called protection. I sigh and
lift my head to the heavens, staring blankly at the gray skies that continue to
shower us with its tears. I sneeze again and just as I am about to lift my arm
again, I find myself staring at a plain white handkerchief.
It
is nothing special. Just a handkerchief. Nothing I have to get myself worked
over.
I
stare at it a moment longer before lifting my head to stare at its owner. I
meet his dark blue eyes and I try to force a smile to my face.
“Tha…thanks…”
I mutter quickly as I reach for it. I blow my nose and make a huge production
of it. “Do you want it back?” I ask
with a shrug as I fold and refold the soiled cloth in my hand. “I could just
wash it and…”
But
he seizes it out of my hand before I can even finish and tucks it into his
pocket.
Gross! My mind protests as I eye
him warily. But then again, he is a strange one.
He’s
a new student – just got admitted last week and according to our teacher, is
considered to be the most brilliant mind in the country. Not that I care or
anything….
But
I do care! I had once held that spot – had once been considered the most
brilliant mind in my high school and now his presence only annoys me to no end.
And
to think that I get to stand here with him at the bus stop every day.
What
a pain.
We
don’t talk to each other much. He had actually tried to be friendly with me and
I had brushed him aside. If I had any hopes of regaining my position as the
best student in school, I’d have to work harder. He is my rival and rivals do
not become…friends. The thought alone is enough to make me sick.
It’s damn unfortunate that we have to take the same route home everyday. Which means that no matter how quick I leave school, I always have to deal with him standing beside me each and every afternoon at the bus stop.
I
sigh again and then sneeze.
I
really must be coming down with a cold.
I
can feel the weight of his stare and I shudder in revulsion.
Stop
looking at me! Stop looking at me, you freak!
Finally,
I can take it no more. “What?” I all but snap in irritation. “Do I have
something sticking out of my head?”
He
stares at me a moment longer before shaking his head and turning away. The
moron. What a moron.
Thankfully,
the bus finally arrives and I am spared the chance to tell him just what I
really think. He gets on before me and makes his way to the back of the bus.
Good thing he does, as I make myself comfortable somewhere in the front.
Because I am about ready to knock some sense into him if he continues to stare
at me like that again.
~*~
Tuesday:
We
had a student council meeting earlier this afternoon. I am the junior president
and it’s only natural that I’d become the president in my final year. I had
worked hard to get to that position and nothing was going to stop me.
That
was until my upperclassman had flatly told me that he was going to be in
the running.
I
bite into my hotdog a bit more ferociously than normal, chewing fast and
thinking hard as I glare angrily at the ‘Stop’ sign beside me.
Of
course I should have expected such a thing, I keep telling myself. It’s only
‘fair’ that they make the most popular guy in school a member of the student
council. It would bring more awareness to the committee, they had said. Oh,
thanks to him, more and more people would like to join the activities, they
gushed.
Oh,
ah, oh and ah.
What
utter and complete rubbish if you ask me.
It’s
a pretty muggy afternoon and as I toss the foil wrap from my lunch into the
nearby trashcan, I stiffen as I hear his familiar footsteps before they stop
beside me. I groan and eye my watch. Why? Why in all things right and just
hadn’t the bus come in earlier? Why do I have to be stuck with him again?
“How’s
your cold?”
Huh?
What’s
he smiling about? There’s nothing to smile about!
“It’s…fine.”
I manage to grate out as politely as I can.
“That’s
good,” he says. “It would have sucked big time to have our future president
sick with the flu.”
Again,
I am spared from saying something that would make me look foolish as the bus
appears again and he steps in before me.
I
wonder if he is making fun of me. I’m sure he is as I eye him sitting at his
usual spot in the back.
Yeah,
he is, I nod to myself with a feeling of intense spite rising within me. And I,
for one, wasn’t going to take it lying down!
~*~
Wednesday:
I
am running – hoping and praying that I can catch the five thirty bus this time
around. I know he is still at school because I passed him as he regaled a bunch
of whiny, fawning fan girls with some story.
I
used to have a fan club. Of course I used to pretend as if it didn’t exist and
would accept their fawning as a right. Now that I think of it…it did sound
pompous and arrogant of me, didn’t it? I mean, I wasn’t particularly interested
in any of the girls, but that still didn’t stop me from enjoying their undying
affections and attention.
I
remember them having special days in my honor! Valentine’s Day was a time when
all seemed to be right with the world. I was the most beloved person in the
entire school.
But
no more. Since he showed up, his fan base has grown and mine has
dwindled down to a pathetic nothing.
I
cringe at the girly babble that fills the hallways as I walk. Oh, he has done
this and he has done that. He is so wonderful and he offered to do this and
that and this for so so so and so. And as if my pain and suffering wasn’t
enough, on Valentine’s Day he was practically swamped with chocolates and
letters!
He
had offered me a box back then.
I
had tossed it away in anger. What did he think I was? Some beggar?
No!
No!!!! I run as fast as my legs can take me, watching in horror as the bus I
had hoped to catch, continues to fade into the distance. I fall to my knees and
wail in defeat. Wondering if I had angered the gods to have this curse befall
on me.
“Looks
like you missed the bus, eh?”
I
feel the acid rise within my throat and I force myself not to give in to my
anger at that friendly tone again. It’s all his fault. Thinking about
him had made me miss the bus. If only he wasn’t in my thoughts, I would have
run much faster!
I
stand up and brush away the dirt from my knees. And with a light snort, I begin
to walk away. Yes, that’s right. I’ll walk all the way home if I have to!
“Are
you walking home?”
Why
don’t you figure that out for yourself, genius? I sneer inwardly.
“It’s
a bit far, don’t you think?”
I
walk a bit faster.
“I
think it’s going to rain too.”
A
few drops begin to fall and I slump my shoulders in defeat.
“Do
you want to stand underneath my umbrella with me…”
“NO!!
WHY DON’T YOU JUST STAY AWAY FROM ME AND MIND YOUR OWN DAMN BUSINESS?!”
A
few passersby stare at us in bemusement, but I am beyond caring. I eye him
coldly, my breathing harsh and rough idly noticing that he has flinched in
response.
Good.
Serves him right for being such a pain in the ass. Finally, he gives me a small
smile that doesn’t quite reach his eyes before he says coolly.
“I
get the picture. Don’t worry, I won’t bother you again, Heero.”
And
as he turns away to wait by the bus stop again, I can only stare at that long
braid of his and wonder if I had perhaps gone a bit too far.
~*~
Thursday:
My
footsteps feel a bit heavier than normal and I don’t know why. Maybe it was
just the whole day in general.
It
has been a dreary, rainy and yet muggy day. I guess I should have been pleased
that he hadn’t made any attempt to be friendly towards me today. He hadn’t
offered to help me take the books to the library. He hadn’t made any attempt at
conversation at the lockers. He hadn’t given me that small wave and annoying
smile each time I came into the classroom. He hadn’t even offered to sit with
me during lunch today.
I
was damn happy that I was finally left alone in peace.
Right?
I
stand beside the ‘Stop’ sign and brace myself for his arrival. It was better
this time – to know I wouldn’t have to deal with his little annoying quirks.
Maybe
if I’m really lucky, he won’t show up today. Hah, but knowing my cursed fate, I
was sure those familiar footsteps would soon be heard and I would have to deal
with him all over again.
Five
minutes, ten.
Fifteen
minutes…
I’m
still alone.
I
reluctantly glance towards his usual standing spot fully expecting him to be
there with that large blue umbrella of his and that small smile he always
seemed to reserve for me.
Instead,
I find myself staring at a little girl who’s sucking on her lollipop with
obvious enjoyment.
Where
are you, you moron?! The bus is going to be here soon and you’re going to miss
it!
Wha…what
am I thinking?! I couldn’t possibly be concerned about him? I don’t care if he
shows up or not! It’s fine this way, right?!
He’ll
show up. He always shows up. So maybe he’s a bit late, that’s all. No big deal.
But
as I watch the bus approaching, I feel a dull panic within me. This is usually
the last bus for the day. If he misses this one…
“Hey,
you coming in or what, kid?”
I
blink at the driver and before I can control myself, I say quickly. “My…my friend
he…he’s not here yet…”
“Oh
you mean the one with the long hair? He took the five thirty. So, you coming in
or what?”
It
hits me – so hard that I almost stagger backwards in disbelief. He…he had come
before me. He had left before me. In just one day, I had driven him
away.
Damn
it!
“Kid??”
But
it’s a good thing anyway, right? Yeah, I wouldn’t have to see his stupid face
anymore. It was perfectly fine and I was glad he had left before me. Who needed
to see him anyway?
So
why then do I find myself sitting at the back of the bus today?
~*~
Friday:
Okay,
I think he is taking this sulking thing a bit too far. So, I yelled at him but
he had surprised me and I had every right to do so, didn’t I?
If
only he hadn’t asked me that question out of the blue…always trying to be so
damn nice…always being cheerful and sweet and just…gah!
He still
hasn’t spoken a word to me all day. He hasn’t looked at me. He hasn’t smiled at
me…he hasn’t…
Of
course, I don’t care about any of these things because I am happy that I don’t
have to deal with it anymore.
I
wrap my fingers around the handle of my umbrella and stare morosely at the
growing puddle beneath my feet. The rains haven’t let up yet and the weekend
looks even bleaker. I really don’t know why I am here so early as I eye my
watch.
Five
oh five…
Five
ten…
I
am feeling more foolish by the second.
Five
fifteen…
And
then I hear his footsteps. They aren’t as quick as before and it sounds even
heavier than mine. I dare to lift my head to glance at him and as our eyes
meet, I see that he is very surprised to find me standing there. He falters for
a moment before allowing his expression to become a bit guarded and cold.
I
glare back at him and turn my face away with a light snort. If he isn’t going
to talk to me, then I have no plans to initiate conversation either.
And
so we stand – like lone warriors on an empty battlefield – neither saying
anything...or rather not knowing what the hell to say.
He
suddenly sneezes and I eye him warily. He lifts his head and glares at me as if
daring me to say anything.
His
eyes are watery, his nose a bit red. I shake my head lightly and reach into my
pocket.
Shoving
the blue handkerchief into his hand, I turn away and eye the bus now
approaching us.
I
can feel my heart pounding a bit faster and my mouth go dry. What have I just
done? And why is he still staring at me?!
But
hearing him blow his nose makes me give an inward sigh of relief.
“Do
you want this back or do you want me to…?”
I
snatch it out of his hand and tuck it into my pocket as I begin to make my way
into the bus. I swear I hear him mutter ‘gross’ beneath his breath. And as I
make my way to the back of the bus, I make some room for him before turning
around to glare out of the window.
He
sits beside me and I swear I can hear him grin.
Hn,
and don’t you think for one second that this makes us friends, Duo Maxwell.
Just
thought I would let you know that.
~Owari~